"you're one of those people that falls in love really easily, aren't you?" "...yes." "you're such a musician" you know how in movies and musicals people will fall in love really quickly, like a day or two, for the sake of plot convinience? that's what i did a week ago. her name is cj sankey and i went to lincoln to see the huskers play texas tech. i've been meaning to go to a skers game for ten years now, and the one that i finally go to they LOSE and i got kicked out at halftime. the latter because cj fell asleep out of drunken boredom during the marching band show. cops don't like it when you sleep at a football game cj was there to visit her best friend and one of my closest friends, kane schmall. i met cj in high school (many moons ago) and immediately had a giant crush on her. but i only see her every few years. the last time i saw her was when i closed music man in summer of 2006. so when i saw her this time, i finally decided to act on my long-standing attachment and now... i am madly, undoubtably, unequivocally in love with her but she's an actress and she lives in LA, and i live in wyoming. and every time i remember that, my chest hurts and my stomach sinks. i talk to her every day. she feels the same way i do. it is glorious and heartbreaking all at once i miss her like the morning misses the stars, like the dreamer misses the dream upon waking 
"Goddamnit mom, i fell for a girl from california! fuck! why do i keep doing this?" "Practice!" happy monday | 
